Rough week. Can't seem to get outraged about much of anything. I picked up Kevin's ashes on Thursday and put them in his office. Even with the ashes here, it still is so unreal to me that this has happened.

We didn't have a plot or a plan - and he'd hate being confined anywhere. I'm thinking I might visit major ballparks we never got to see and spread a little bit of him around at each one. Who knows -- at this point, it's too hard to think any more than a day ahead.